I came to America 28 years ago. It was my dream as a child to be, and live as, an American. I blame John Wayne and Ronald Reagan. Imagine being a little girl from France and watching the First Columbia launch on a black and white TV. We were so behind back then, we did not even know about microwaves. In the movie Gremlins, the mom pops a coffee mug in a microwave and voila hot in a few seconds. My mom and I looked at each other in sheer amazement! So on it goes, and American is the only way for me. I am 22 and land in NYC, guess where I went first, on my first day, my first few hours in NYC? Trump Tower! Back in 1992, Trump was "IT" for us Europeans, he represented America's greatness. Whether it was a fairy tale or the epitome of the American dream, who knows, but Trump Tower was stop #1, it had to be. Fast forward 28 years later, I am a citizen, a licensed Clinical, I have two brilliant boys, one excelling at Seton Hall, the other entering high school. I have done my very best instilling conservative and Christian (Catholic) values in them. I rode the Trump train since 2015. I proudly wore my tin foil hat trying to decipher Q's blurbs and held the line until January 20. But now I am tired, I am disgusted and I am scared. I don't know what the future will hold for any of us deplorables. I find myself whispering in stores and avoiding eye contact. Don't get me wrong, I am not ashamed of my vote. But yes, I am discouraged and I am scared. While I am willing to fight, I feel their suppressing our voices and platforms is just the beginning. What they are doing to Mike Lindell is beyond unacceptable and I am appaled that Republicans for whom we have voted and who would be nothing without our past votes and support, remain silent and look away. Everyday one of us is canceled, fired, banned, ridiculed or threatened. Our representatives do nothing. Everything Democrats have done and said in the last 5 years should scare anyone with two brain cells to rub. This is NOT America, this is definitely not the America I dreamt of as a little girl. I am disappointed in my president too. He knows what they are capable of, he has all the intel about the depth of their corruption from Jfk on, this should not have come as a surprise to him, but his silence and poor choice in legal representation make me wonder if maybe, just maybe, he too is tired and perhaps scared. So we cut cable years ago, I do not watch any msm, I do not sponsor Hollywood, I try to buy local. But living in NJ, well, you can imagine what it's like. The degenerate across the street took offense to my American flag, and yes, I bowed down and moved it to the back of the house. Not one Trump sign in sight during the election. I drive to work everyday and pass countless yard signs "Hate has no place here"...Seriously? They cheer Kathy Griffin' severed head stunt, they call for re education camps, they silence and make pariahs out of us, they insult their way into arguments and some even want us dead, but hate has no place in their home! You can't make this s*** up, their lack of self awareness and insight is beyond me. I have schizophrenic patients making more sense than these TDS idiots. I don't wish anybody harm i just want to distance myself from them but I feel that sooner or later they will figure out a way to oust every single one of us. I give you a for instance, I am the only one at work who did not get the vaccine...it's a matter of time before I get questioned about that. I may lose my job and with that, my livelihood and my home. Then what? And why? Because I dare think outside their ever shrinking box? Thank God for Steve, Raheem, Mike, Peter and all the others who keep our voice alive and provide some direction and hope. But I am tired of the msm sponsored push backs and dems blessing violence against us. I just want MY America back.